Sexploration

No, not going out as in dating... I'm going out into town tonight with Valerie. She made a point of telling me that her house will be empty tonight and tomorrow night... Looks like I'll be away from home for a couple of days then.

Her new costume has arrived too. She sent me a picture of her wearing it this morning. This isn't that picture, because that's not Valerie, but it's close enough! Stunning!

Looking forward to it already!

Valerie came over yesterday with her Snow White outfit that she bought for Red Nose Day.

It made my day! She only agreed to put it on for me if I put on a pirate costume I had left over from Hallowe'en a few years ago. I didn't really have to think about it for very long.

It was a good night!

Part of the time Valerie was face down on the bed. She has "aluminium blonde" hair, and I swear it was the weirdest thing, looking down and seeing (for all intents and purposes) Snow White... She was naked after a little while though, and that was good too!

Valerie sent me a text message this morning at 01:35:

 I want you so much.. I missed not dancing with you tonight.. So hungry.. And drunk x

I replied straight awaybecause I was still awake anyway. A few seconds later I was still playing with my phone when I got what was supposed to be a prank from Valerie. I was pressing keys, so I answered it by mistake. I called her back after she'd hung up and we had a bit of a chat for a while.

She was out with a bunch of her friends. I had a bi of a chat with one of them too. She was telling me how Valerie had been really good and hadn't danced with any guys, or anything like that. It sounds really silly, but I was actually kinda touched that they would say that.

We stopped talking for a while so Valerie could get something to eat and get a taxi home. She pranked me again when she was back. I called her back and we were talking for over an hour.

I really kinda realised I like her a lot then. I was obviously worried that Valerie would go out and be flirting and dancing with anyone and stuff.

I suppose there's no point saying I can take it or leave it now, since there's obviously something a bit more there... At least on my side of the fence. It seems the same on her side too though. Very nice.

Valerie picked me up from work again today and we came back to my house for a few hours before we both went out to different places. We got back and the house was empty, much to my happiness.

We had a bit of a talk about the night before. Things seem to be getting better for her already, which is good. She still has a few things to sort out with her ex, but I'm sure she's positive about her decision to leave him. Even if she's not with me she shouldn't be with him.

We ended up play-fighting on my bed because I slapped her ass or something. She hits pretty damn hard! Of course this turned into us taking each others clothes off, for a change. Valerie had shaved her legs, and a few other places, and she was comfortable enough with herself to actually let me go down on her for the first time. I'd tried before, but I wasn't allowed. I know she enjoyed that a lot. The whole session after the going down and some fingering consisted of me on top, and it was goooood. Valerie proved yet again that she has good self-control and waited until I was ready before she came. Can't beat it.

We lied together in bed for a few minutes afterwards. It was ridiculously hot by that point, and it was so nice just not moving any more. Feeling my heart beat slow down to something that didn't run the risk of breaking my rib cage!

She's out in town tonight, and I'm a bit worried about a few things... She's newly single, so she might go do something random or something. I'd feel kinda bad I think... Although I'd feel better if she told me in an off-the-cuff sort of manner, so I know where we stand. If she denies something then I'll just suspect something anyway. Damn me and the situations I put myself in! Oh well! I actually don't think she'd do anything. Call me a sucker.

Valerie ended up breaking up with her boyfriend last night. She's now single for the first time in a few months.

The two of us have agreed to give a relationship a try when she returns from her training some time in May... Until then Iit seems like we're going to continue with our hanging out with each other. I don't really see how it's much different from a relationship really. Not unless she has some other guy on the side or I have another girl. I haven't bothered with anyone else since this more serious stuff began with Valerie. It would just feel kinda wrong until I know the score.

Oh well... The situation's moving on. Just a couple of weeks until Valerie goes away... Then 5 weeks of sitting around getting bored. It's quite confusing being single, but knowing you're going to get with someone in a couple of months... Anything I do will probably feel like cheating, and might be seen that way by Valerie. Pfft. It's all silliness. I'll see if I can get a bit more of a concrete thing with Valerie before she goes away. Two weeks should suffice!

Charm mode: on

Valerie and I had a talk, as I kinda brushed over previously. She told me she's going to be dumping her present boyfriend in the near future (I believe her because of tonight's events (later in the entry)), and she would like for something to happen between us. After a lot of shy discussion we agreed that we liked each other as more than just friends and would like to give things a go as a serious relationship.

Valerie, as I've mentioned a few times now, is going to be away from the area for 5 weeks of training in a couple of weeks from now. She said she's going to dump her current boyfriend ASAP, but wants to stay single until she's back from the training because there's no point in us being "together" but not together. It sounds pretty smart to me, even if all it means is she wants to sleep around a bit first. That's what I wanna do anyway.

So, I have about 7 weeks of being single left now. Any fun I want to have in the time between now and then is up to me, same as it's up to her. Valerie has said she'll want to be coming back at the weekends for sex though, which suits me down to the ground! With any luck she's actually going to follow through on what she's been saying and visit me for my birthday on Easter Sunday. We have a sort of idea of travelling somewhere cool for the long weekend. It'd be nice if it worked out, but I'm not holding my breath. A lot of people are all talk.

Anyway, this all kind of brings me to today. Valerie met me after she finished work tonight with my friend in the pub for the quiz. Her phone ran out of battery at a fairly early point of the night. After the quiz my friend left us together. We spoke for a few minutes and then went outside. To my absolute horror I discovered that Valerie's current boyfriend, John, had parked up next to Valerie in the car park and was waiting for her to come out. Obviously I didn't notice this until I was already at the car, and so it was kinda too late to turn around.

He was not pleased. She got the regular "who the fuck is that?!?" She explained that I was someone she knew from work and I kept my mouth closed and looked at the ground for a while. The night ended for me with Valerie giving me a lift home while her boyfriend followed us in the car behind. They had a nice little race because they were both pissed off. As far as I know they're now having a "talk."

This would be the ideal opportunity for Valerie to get rid of him, if she's serious.

Awesome stuff, eh?

Valerie picked me up from work yesterday and we went straight back to my house. I was going to be helping her set up a wireless network at her house, but we never really got that far.

We hung out listening to music for quite a while, then we got in my bed, fully clothed, and sat talking about what we were thinking of each other and the whole <em>state of the union</em> type conversation. I was pleased that we both felt very similarly about each other and things seemed to be going well.

Before too long we'd drifted onto other topics. Well, we'd pretty much stopped talking altogether. We spent a lot of time kissing and stuff. It was a lot more comfortable this time. No awkwardness before the first kiss of the day.

When it was nice and dark and quiet we began doing a bit more stuff. At one point I had to change the song playing on the computer or something... I turned back around to the bed afterwards to find Valerie sitting there with no top on, just a white bra. She has an amazing sun tan, and the combination of low light and the white bra just made her look perfect. I pretty much rugby tackled her back onto the bed and then we both undressed each other pretty hurriedly.

Pretty quickly we were having sex. It started out, as is almost always the case, with me on top. It actually stayed like that the entire time. That makes it sound like it didn't last long, but it really did. Over an hour, anyway. My record is 6.5 hours, which I don't have the time to beat these days! Basically I was on top the entire time, but we varied that a little bit. Sometimes she'd put her hands up and I'd pin her down. She really likes to feel a bit helpless. Somewhat of a thrill, I think. I couldn't really do everything I wanted because I didn't have the house to myself. It's tough to keep the noises to an overall volume similar to that of a hummingbird collecting pollen a kilometre away. How come parents have such good hearing for the things you wish they'd never hear?

Anyway, I let Valerie know I was close, and I could tell she was too. A few seconds later I came, only to find that she had been controlling herself ridiculously well, and came at the same time. That's always great! She told me that she can always control it like that, so that's a good thing.

We stayed in bed for a while and after about half an hour it was suggested that we go again, and so we did. This time I started out on top, but didn't stay like that this time. I got Valerie on top for quite a while and she was even better than before. I really do enjoy just letting her do her thing. She knows what she's doing!

I moved around behind her and we did it doggy-style for a time. It was making the bed creak quite a bit though, so I held her ankles and pulled her arms out from underneath her. She likes it a bit rough. When she was flat on her stomach I carried on, and I could move a lot faster from behind her like that. She told me it had been a while since she'd done it in that position. We must have stayed in that position for at least 15 minutes, and eventually I reached the point I'd been aiming for and came again. Both of us were well and truly knackered by this point. We'd spent at least 50 minutes on the second time! It was a good night.

We were lying down to go to sleep a little while alter when Valerie started kissing me and nibbling my ear and kissing my neck. She moved down a bit further and kissed my chest a bit. I thought then that she was going to give me a blowjob. I was correct!

Unfortunately it hadn't been very long since we'd had sex, twice, so I wasn't really in much of a state to do anything. She carried on just licking and sucking for a long time. It felt really good, but I was exhausted. As much as I hated to say it there was nothing I could do. She stopped after a while, unperturbed, and we went to sleep.

It was the best night in recent memory! Gooooood stuff!

So, umm, yeah. It looks kinda like Valerie and I might be getting together on a more permanent sort of arrangement. This is all assuming she actually goes ahead with what she's suggested, and we still both think it's a good idea in a week or two.

I don't know if I'm happy or sad about it all to be honest... She's awesome, and she actually has some get-up-and-go about her, unlike most girls I know around here. I've enjoyed being single, and I think I could enjoy it a lot more... But there are things I've definitely missed about being with someone that were highlighted for me after spending the whole weekend with Valerie.

I suppose I'll write some more stuff here when I'm a bit more sure about what's going on.

I went out with Valerie on Friday night. I met some of her friends and everything was cool. Took me a while to get into it, because I was surrounded by people who I didn't know, and who do know Valerie's boyfriend. Just a good thing for me that they don't like him at all.

When we were in the second pub a few more friends of friends arrived that even Valerie didn't know. There was one girl there who was pretty much my definition of perfect. I don't know her name even now. I found myself spending a lot of time looking at her, which is fucking stupid. Am I never happy? When I realised I was being totally moronic I stopped paying any attention and got fully back to Valerie.

We had an absolutely brilliant night in the pubs, then moved on to a club. When we were in the club I was really surprised to bump into Denise and one of her friends who I went to Blackpool with last year. They came over to say hello and we had a very brief chat, and then I got back to Valerie again. Too many interruptions already.

At some point I decided to give dancing a bit of a go. I think it was when Valerie started dancing right in front of me, took my hands and put them all over her. Yeah, that was probably it! For the first time in a couple of years I actually kinda danced a bit, and it was awesome. It's entirely thanks to Valerie's skill, not me.

After basically acting out an entire night in bed, standing up, we finally kissed for the first time of the night. Apparently Valerie's boyfriend's best friend was in the club at the time... Nothing bad has come of it yet, and I'm hoping he either didn't notice, or doesn't really care...

Valerie's friends all left the club before it closed, but for the very first time I actually stayed there until everyone was getting kicked out. Valerie and I walked over the road from the club to a taxi and she got in. As she was getting in she asked if I was going to go back to hers with her. I didn't need to be asked twice.

We got back to hers at about 03:30 and just talked and ate pizza before going to sleep at 04:30. It was nice to not have to do anything but chat.

We both woke up at 07:30 the next morning for no apparent reason and were wide awake. We hung out in bed for a good couple of hours, watching music channels on Sky... Then her mum got home. Now, her mum didn't know about me, and she does know about John, so this was a bit of an awkward situation.

We avoided any incidents for a while because her mum stayed out of the room and the door was closed when she walked past. At some point Valerie was walking out of the room, so she opened the door and her mum was walking past. She saw someone else was in the bed (I had the covers over my head) and she said "Morning John." I didn't have a clue what I should do, so I just stayed silent. Valerie said "he's asleep," and I thought the danger was over.

I was wrong!

I don't know how she worked it out, but the next thing I heard was Valerie's mum saying "that's not John," and Valerie saying "yes it is..." I stopped breathing completely for a few seconds so I could listen better. Her mum repeated herself, and so did Valerie. Then, because Valerie was downstairs by this point, her mum walked into the room and pulled the covers off my head...

Now, no matter what you think, there are no words you can say in this situation. Even if there was something even remotely appropriate I guarantee that you will not be able to remember it when in the situation yourself. I just stayed still and didn't say or do anything, like a Chinese man in front of a tank.

Valerie's mum walked out and downstairs asking Valerie who I was and I just laughed to myself in silence for a little while.

I was expecting to be told I should get going at this point, but Valerie's mum was actually quite cool about it all. Just saying that John should really be clued into the whole thing and get everything sorted out. She also said she wouldn't tell him if Valerie wasn't going to. That was a major relief.

Valerie came back and we hung out in her room listening to music for the majority of the day. In the afternoon we decided to come to my house instead to sort out some music that Valerie wanted from my computer. We came back here and Valerie met my mum very briefly before she went out. We sorted out the music pretty quickly, and then decided that Valerie would stay for the night. We decided to watch a movie, and ended up deciding on Pocahontas. Yeah, Pocahontas.

About 5 minutes in Valerie said she should get some things for work the next day from her house. We got in her car and drove over to her house. Her mum was out, so I went in with her for a few minutes. After about 2 minutes her mum came home. Perfect! She came upstairs and was asking Valerie if she was going out or something, then walked into Valerie's room and saw me sitting there. I said hello, but she just said "oh," and walked back out again quickly, talking to Valerie. They had a miniature discussion about John and then Valerie and I set off back for my house.

We actually carried on watching Pocahontas for a little while before we started kissing and stuff. I don't really remember much of the movie from last night... At one point during some playing around I got another scratch on my back that bled... This one bled properly. I had blood running down my back and onto the sheets, so that's an indication of how bad it was. Felt good though. Before too long we were both completely undressed and only looking for one thing. Over the course of a kiss or two I moved over and was lying on top of Valerie. We started out like that, in missionary position just enjoying it. Valerie told me she hadn't had sex for 2 weeks, and so she really did enjoy it a lot. Especially with the night of dancing and kissing before it getting her well and truly in the mood.

We didn't stay in missionary for very long because now neither of us were ill we seemed to both have points to prove. Valerie turned around on her hands and knees and I got behind her. She told me before that doggy-style was her favourite position, and I definitely enjoy it a lot myself. She did mention that it was a bit hard for her a couple of times, but it was difficult to take it easy for any significant amount of time.

I decided to change position again and get Valerie up on top so she was a bit more in control than before. Before too long I was holding her still and moving myself underneath her though... I find it very difficult to just do nothing. At some point Valerie decided to completely take over, though. So that was nice. Her dancing was really an indication of how good it would be for real. I'll definitely be getting her on top more often and letting her run the show if that's how it'll be! I had to stop her a couple of times because I was a bit (understatement) close. The third time I was told not to worry about stopping and so I didn't. It's way better having someone doing something to you when you finish than being the one doing stuff... Just a whole bunch of stuff you don't have to concentrate on.

After all of that we both realised how tired we were and decided we should really get some sleep. It was a welcome relief for us both.

We woke up this morning and within a minute we were tickling, pinching, slapping, and even scratching each other. It was quite weird, really. Nice, but weird.

A few minutes after that and we were both ready for the postponed second round. We started off the same as last night with me on top and both just enjoyed it like that for a while. For a bit of variation I had Valerie's legs up on my shoulders, but I think the extra bit of depth and pressure changed her mind on that one after half a minute, and so we switched back again. I can't remember the last time I had sex for so long in one position as this morning. I have no idea how long it was for, but we were both absolutely covered in sweat and dying of thirst by the time we finished. It was really really good.

Valerie's gone off to work now, after spending some time listening to music and getting ready. I'll be going out soon and I probably won't see her again until Tuesday. I'm pretty sure of the fact that I'll be thinking of her a lot between now and then though.

I was talking to Valerie on MSN a little earlier while I was at work and she randomly invited me out tomorrow night. Turns out she's going out with one of her friends, and her boyfriend won't be there. She also invited me out next week, and in a couple of weeks too, all at the same time. Awesome!

I saw Valerie a little later and we went for a drink together, along with my co-worker Andy. Nothing else happened. I wanted to kiss her but couldn't pluck up the nerve. What happens to my confidence when I'm with her? :\ She kept dropping hints about me going to see her at work later in the evening. I said I was going to be busy, but I'd see what I could do.

I went to my sister's house to get my hair cut (she's a hair dresser) and we ended up getting some pizza. My sister chose from a different pizza place to where Valerie works though. Later on in the evening I got a message from Valerie saying that her place was still open and take away was dead. I let her know I'd gone to another place. I got a message back saying "Traitor... I feel un loved." I asked her how I could make it up to her. "I don't know where to start. How do you think you should make it up to me Hehe x"

I told her I'd need some time alone with her to show her and she said "I'm out on my own tomoro Nite n stopping at mine aswell," which sounds a lot like an invitation to me. Looks like I might have another update to post the day after tomorrow, when I get home!

Michelle's been sending me hundreds of messages, calling me, and generally just trying to be in touch with me all the time. It's been quite an annoyance when Lisa's been over. Like having a stalker, almost. Michelle really enjoyed herself on Saturday (as did I), and she wants to do more. I'm not entirely sure if that's a good idea because of how she's dealing with this whole thing so far.

I'm not looking for a girlfriend at the moment. It'd have to be someone pretty amazing to convince me otherwise. The way she's trying to stay in contact with me all the time had me thinking she was expecting more than just friends with benefits.

Today, however, I was quite surprised. She told me she was leaving to go have sex! It was pretty unexpected, to be honest. I suppose it's a good thing that she's not as obsessed with me as I thought, but blah. Felt kinda weird still.

Oh well, I'll keep some distance for a while, I think.

Lisa called me at work on Monday to see if I wanted to go to the cinema to watch something. I said yes, naturally. After work we met up and then went to see Hot Fuzz which is funny as hell!

In the cinema there was very little contact. We didn't even hold hands, in fact. She did point out her new Wonderbra to me, which was greatly appreciated. There was quite a lot on display. I did the classy thing and threw some popcorn down there. It was fun retrieving it afterwards.

We came back here after the movie with the intention of watching more movies. That didn't happen. We were both quite tired, so I turned the lights off and we got into bed. A minute or two later we were kissing and rolling around, getting kinda pushy with each other, actually. It was cool.

Lisa was having another night where she didn't want anything to be done to her. It's kinda strange in my opinion, but fair enough if that's what she wants. She did take her trousers off this time though, and that was a welcome improvement. She has very nice legs, and underwear, it'd be a shame to miss out!

She spent a little while demonstrating how good she is at foreplay. Literally, she said she wanted to show me, and then she did. She is good at teasing... God damn! She did a lot of licking, and running her fingers all over, and I returned the favour. We both discovered that we really enjoy having our ears nibbled, or licked. So we spent quite a lot of time doing that.

Before too long she'd skipped from the less explicit foreplay onto giving a handjob and using her mouth every so often. It was good, as always, but I decided to try something I'd not tried with her before. Since I first noticed her breasts there's been something I've wanted to do (well, several things that I'd already done). She lied down on her back and pushed her breasts together. Pushing between them felt really good. It was less wet, there was no artificial lubrication, so there was plenty of friction.

Lisa decided she wanted to take over with her hand again at one point, and I didn't want to stop her. I have to commend her on her stamina... She still kept losing the rhythm every now and again and it made things take a very long time. Even with 10 years of practice I don't know if I could have managed as well as she did. It took her a while, but she made it in the end and it felt totally amazing. Quite possibly the build-up had something to do with that. It's the best handjob I've ever had. Hands-down! (Pun fully intended!)

There's a girl I knew through someone I lived with several months ago who I really liked a lot back then. I spent a bit of time with her, but nothing happened because I was the most shy person in the universe.

The first time I met her was in a nightclub near where I live. My mate asked me to pick out who I thought was the best looking girl in there. I looked around and pointed out this girl in a red dress. He double-checked who I meant and then laughed. It turned out he knew her through his girlfriend. He called he over and introduced us. Her name is (for the purpose of this blog) Denise. It was incredibly weird! I met Denise a few times after that and we both got on pretty well, but I was never forward enough to ask her to do something, or go somewhere.

Yesterday I got an email saying she wanted to add me on MySpace! I accepted her and we sent a few messages back and forth. It was 1am though, so we both left after a short amount of time. My plan for the rest of this week is to get her talking on MSN, and then to get her phone number. If I manage those then I'll see about getting her to go to the cinema with me or something.

I don't think she would add me as a friend on Myspace, or even remember, if she didn't like me at least a bit. If I ask her out somewhere and she turns me down then it's no big loss. I'll either salvage a friendship, or I won't speak to her, much like the last 9 months. I can't really get it too wrong.

Tune in at the end of the week to find out what I didn't think of and how terribly wrong it went!

Valerie is going to be going away for 5 weeks in just under a month. I've mentioned that before, I know. I'm kinda confused by her. I like her, I think I'd risk seeing her properly if she would do the same, but I can't work out what she wants.

Yes, she has a boyfriend, but he's not a very nice person at all. Valerie and I have had a couple of things happen that were a lot of fun, but wrong while she's with someone else. Now they've happened and she's planning on going away I'm having a lot of trouble with her. I can't get her to do anything with me recently. I can't get answers to questions. She just tries and tries to get me chasing her. I really can't stand girls playing hard to get. Least of all when it's a girl I've already got!

I'm considering just avoiding her for a while, letting her make up her mind, see if she's actually interested in me, or just the attention. Part of me thinks that'd be a great idea, and another part of me thinks she'll just decide she's not interested and carry on with her moron boyfriend.

I suppose I should just give her some time and space, but still be friends with her, and keep it so she knows I like her, without any pressure... Without asking her out somewhere, or sending her messages and stuff. I hate to chase girls like that.

Why do girls have to make things so complicated?

Lisa came over and I helped her to forget about her problem pretty quickly. We sat around having a bit of a chat, and I think it really put her mind a bit more at rest. After that the night went a lot more like any other night.

We came to my room and watched Crash (incredibly good film), and then updated songs on her iPod and stuff like that. We started hugging and kissing at about 04:30 and that carried on for a very long time. It was getting light outside by the time we actually got around to having sex. It was incredible. I don't know if sleep deprivation has some regular effect on sex or not, but we both agreed it was the best it'd been between us.

Literally 2 or 3 minutes afterwards we were both asleep in my bed. When we woke up it was late morning. We spent the largest portion of the day just sitting around my room refusing to get up and dressed. It got dark again and Lisa felt like repeating the events of the early morning. Unfortunately for her I think the 2 hours or foreplay and the effort we'd both put into the sex had made it a bit too painful to go again.

Rather than doing nothing at all Lisa offered to do something for me. She started off giving a handjob that turned into a half blowjob. It was great again, and I didn't take over until right at the end because as soon as I told her I was close she kinda slowed down and loosened her grip instead of just carrying on. I really don't get why people do that. I noticed I used to do it myself a few years ago. I'd be fingering my girlfriend at the time and she'd tell me she was really close and I'd change to try to speed up, or start pushing harder or something... The change of stroke did nothing but disturb her and I basically had to work back up from where I was 5 minutes ago. I think rhythm is the most important factor when it comes to helping someone else climax.

Looking forward to spending more time with Lisa in the near future.

Michelle came over today for the first time. We started out by watching a movie, sort of. We kept poking and tickling each other from the start and half way through we were kissing. The movie was almost over and other than a few wandering hands we'd still only kissed.

There was obviously something on her mind, so I asked her what it was. She said she wasn't sure what she wanted to do and didn't want to rush too much. I said if she wasn't sure then she was better off not doing anything. I'm not a complete asshole.

The movie finished and Michelle had to get going, so I walked her downstairs. She mentioned that she wanted to see my cellar, so I showed her around there too. It was kinda weird, there was a lot of tension in the air because we obviously both wanted to do something.

When we got to the top of the cellar stairs I turned the lights off down there and everything was very dark. I closed the cellar door and turned back to Michelle in the dark. Two seconds later she had pulled me to the most convenient wall and was kissing me again leaning against the wall. I put my hand on her hip and she quickly pulled her top and bra up without any hint from me. I started kissing her stomach, then her breasts, then her neck and then back to her mouth again. It was totally unexpected for me, but I made the most of it. We both had our hands all over each other. A few places in particular.

The kissing subsided after a minute or so and she went as if to finish getting ready to leave. I said "no, on your knees" and to my absolute joy she actually got down on her knees! I had planned to play it off as a joke when she turned me down, but she didn't. Score!

Well, she really was runnnig late, so we were both kinda hurried. She gave an absolutely amazing blowjob. I don't know how she managed stuff at the end, but it's pretty much the best it's ever felt for me. She just did something... I wish I knew what it was!

Michelle went to use the bathroom, cleaned what she (and I) had got on her jeans, and then off she went.

It was completely unexpected, but definitely glad I invited her over.

Lisa is coming over in a little while. She's had a partcularly bad couple of days so I'm going to be cheering her up as a friend tonight. She wasn't going to come over, but I talked her into it. I don't want to take advantage of her or anything though, so I'm not making any moves or hitting on her or anything like that. I'll just play it cool and see what happens.